I am sad to see to see that my friends, one by one are starting not to care with each other. They have become to busy with their work and love life. I have nothing against that though, but to ignore your freinds like that I think is not acceptable. Most of them are refusing our invitation to go out since they will be with their boyfriend or they’re boyfriend has prohibited them from going out with other people.
I never had a boyfriend so I don’t know how it really works. But one thing for sure I will not abandon any of my friends just for a guy. I find that unfair and selfish, I will not trade my friendship to anyone. I noticed too, that my friends will only start to mingle with us when they have ended their relationship with their boyfriend. Is that how it really works? Friends are lifesavers? Is that the only purpose of a friend? To save you from being alone?
With the things going on right now, I have set some rules for myself. I told myself not to be too attached with my friends, set limitations for myself, learn to give importance to myself or so to say be more selfish. Maybe I have a different conception with friends too. I have watched sex and the city and friends too much so I thought that friends are really that close and intact. I sometimes wonder maybe there is something wrong with me, maybe I am too demanding, but on a second thought I never demand anything to them nor I asked favors from them. It was always my friends who do those things to me because they know that I don’t complain or I don’t mind it. I envy a group of girls who are very close to one another, very open to one another. How i wish could have girlfriends like that.
I thought of having a boyfriend could make it easier for me, but I don’t think that would be fair for me and for the guy. I want everything to be genuine not because it is needed or just to fill the missing blanks. I know my come will time. I have faith with that. I know that God is not yet done creating a blockbuster love story for me. I am just dramtic because valentine’s is fast approaching and I am date-less. But that is fine God will be my date! CIAO!
